1 Year has gone...

Can't believe one year has passed. So fast!!!

well, one year gone, means I'm done with my MT training. Everyone is posted to different sections. It is the same for me as well.. The previous year was filled with laughter, tears, fun, and fears. After so many things had happened, life still goes one. I truly realize who is and who's not true. So many to identify makes me feel tired and instead I'll think i pass. Call me chicken or whatever you wanted to. I'm tired. I just wanna work and earn and live my life the way I've wanted it. I just wanna be me wherever you're going to put me and I DON'T CARE.

Since I'm assigned to MA.. i guess i have more free time and STEADY working shifts. Is that a good thing? Well, still haven't have a clue what will i face in the future but I'll chop it off one by one. 当我者死！！！

First thing need to settle now is the very last progressive report for this MT program..

huh~

New place New Life!!

Today is da 3rd day after reporting to Genting. During the first day of reporting, we need to settle the room, uniform, employee ID and many stuffs. Luckily, I manage to get good, great clean room with a great room mate. Besides that, my batch of MT colleagues are all very friendly and we're so loud until everywhere we go also got ppl ask us to Shhhh~ =.=

Anyhow, being here is fun. despite.. the work loads might be abit heavy.. but i will work my way in n out within this year and learn and make mistake as much as i could. because i believed, every mistake i made, will allow me to learn another new thing and reminding myself not to repeat it in my future employment. IF i am being employed.. ahahhaha...

As I'm updating this blog now, i'm onlining in da exec club prepared by the company as one of the benefits for executive levell and above. What are the other benefits I cannot disclose here as everything is P&C. I'm afraid I might be given warning letter or have to make appointment with the IRO. >.<

Anyway, what I wanna say is, to whoever who is interested to be at the place that I am now, Please do so., I can bet you'll not regret it. It's a great place with great ppl . What more you want in life. And oh, if you ever meet any not so good ppl, just smile, they can't do anything to you. I can smile and go over with the nastier things these days~ ahahahkz.. I know stress is coming, but I'm ready and waiting for it to come! AJa Aja Hwaiting!!!

Finally~

Have been searching for whole night for a camera to take a few photos to proof what I've mentioned about da Kua cheongness of my packing proces.. well here it is... ahahha






































Now... do you believe me how kua cheong it is... not forgetting .. it's very heavy as well.. well then.. adios... so sad.. my hp camera button rosak~~ wuuwuuw

Packing Packing....

ahahaha.. another time da reason that makes me write this blog is because there's a new pet in my blog. and yes, thanks to ShinYee again.. she never fails to introduce me cute stuffs that can add colours in my blog.. wakakkaa...

without realizing.. it's already 1st of August... one week has passed.. Tomorrow morning need to go up hill already and start my working life.. packing to leave is a very normal thing that I've been doing... First was during finishing form 6 and I pack to leave for Genting to work .. then when I got my uni offer, I pack to leave for Sabah... during sem break comes home and return when a new semester starting.. and now.. it's packing to leave for Genting again but this time is a longer period.. will be staying there for at least a year.. hence.. the packing session takes more time.. and pack ha pack ha...I've got two trolley bags, one hand carry bag, and one laptop bag to bring up there... I'm very lucky that Alan's father is fetching me up there.. or else if I'm sitting bus up this will be a torture.. not only for me.. for Alan as well.. >.<

Any how.. was kinda regret.. my phone's camera button was out of order... if not i can put up picture here and let you see how kua cheong it is.. hahaha... I'm so gonna buy a new phone when the financial conditions is allowing me to do so.. Sigh~ finally it's time to leave.. I've got no feeling yet.. I'm not sad because I'll leave home.. I'm sad cause I'm leaving Alan.. and perhaps.. my Mom.. or my room?? I have no any idea how my new room or roommate would be.. but so far.. I think i can adapt with whatever they give me... but I still hope it'll not be so........ dirty or messy la.. who wants to live in a messy o dirty room right??

Cross my fingers.. and pray for my room or roommate wanna be is a great one.. okay..not so greedy la.. no need great.. average would do... hahaha.. time to sleep.. it's already 3 am!!! Tomorrow need to go early to Alan house help out.. and.. then go free lunch lu.... it's 神诞 at his place.. tomorrow eat vegetarian~~ yum yum.. nitey bloggie~~

da neW emo world. Credits to mS. 张心仪

A very dear friend of mine let me know that my blog was dead for almost 7 months. With her help and expertise she help me 'revived' my dead blog and here I am, posting da first blog in 2010.

Life has been very tough lately but I still thank god that despite all the 'hardship' or heartbroken moments that I'm going through , I've got what I want on the things I've put effort in. I got to finish my 6 months of torturous yet exciting internships in da heart of KL, I managed to finish my intern reports with da help of my love and friends. Besides that, after all the interviews and nervous breakdowns, I've got the job that allow me to learn things that I've never learned before in my university life. I get the opportunity to get gone from da place that i don't wanna be and wolla~ there's only 3 days left for my new life's beginning. I'm anticipating and at da same time I know I'm gonna give my best.

Ever since getting this job, I've been getting quite da same questions from other people asking; "you're taking music in Uni, how come you get this job which is totally not related to what you have been studying for 3 years?'' Well, I do not know how to answer that actually, what I can say is, my 3 years in Uni had been the most fruitful yet exciting years that I've lived for this long. I get to know people who are dear to me, i get to learn alot of things during that time, and I've got to know some of the most encouraging mentor there too. I can say that I'm fortunate to be able to study in University Malaysia Sabah despite majoring a course that I'm not sure whether I'll utilise it in my career/working path or not.

To da people out there, it's not necessary what field you're studying in Uni then when you come out you MUST work in that field. If you are, then you're fortunate and lucky or perhaps it has been your ambition since you're young. For someone who does not know what is my ambition since I'm young, I'm doing not bad either. I too survived and lived my life until today, I got a job that I wanted because I put effort in it. Believe me, qualification on any field is an extra credit that you can use when you're gonna work. But what is going to get you land on the job that you want is the way you bring yourself and I believed, communication skills. I'm not very good at it too, but at least now, it's sufficient for me to get what I want. There is still loads of space for me to learn and believe me, learning process is never ending. I'm gonna start my working life with an empty cup, filling it in as I work and learn.

I guess I blah alot of crap today again not knowing if there's anyone who will be reading it. Great, I wanted to do this all along. I just wanna thank you again , ShinYee, for making my blog alive, and I just wanna let you know.. i really like this whole new face of my Blog.. Muaks~~

How Can I Forget and get on with my life?

I dreamt about you. why do you appear in my dreams? it makes my life even more miserable and in reality i can't approach you...argh!! stay out of my mind!!!!!!

Worst raya holiday ever!!!

Do you know how it feels when you're left all alone? Do you know how it feels whenever you're heading to lunch or dinner o whatsoever and realising that you're gonna eat all alone by yourself? Do you ever know how it feels when you have to be all alone in a distant place where there's no one by your side? argh! this is the worst raya EVER!!!

I'm left alone in the hostel room. Every single day woke up not knowing what to do. Every morning wakes up realising there's a pile of assignments waiting for you to do but you have no idea where to start! Everyone is at least enjoying their holiday spending it with their love ones or at least be at home but I'm staying here in the hostel room naggin ang nagging to the blog.

I thought that this was the last semesters, only left few months for me to see those whom i really thought was dear to me. yet, during this holiday i'm going through it alone and they are staying home as usual.. maybe i was the only one who thought that we're different. I mean, i always thought you guys were different, unlike those whom you already know using me. but going through this holiday is making me realise maybe you guys is no much different from them. it makes my heartache thinking about it. why is it during the last semesters of the studies our friendship grew apart? Is it we're all busy? I can say 100% the answer is NO. somehow our distance is getting wider, we're not as close as last time. there are many times that i tried to bring things up and most of the time i ended up dissapointed and i gave up as well.. maybe our friendship is not that strong anyways. sometimes i wonder, do you guys every cared about this friendship? you guys have your own life, teaching, going to school, your family, boyfriends but have you ever realise? you're the family that i have here in Sabah, you're actually important!

I guess you guys will never realise how i'd feel after all. Our story our friendship during these few years are only going to be our memories. memories for us to think that there were once we were so close but it's not the same anymore. it's never gonna be the same.

I hate this holiday! All i can do is just do and do and do my farking retarted assignments. nono.. actually i'm the one retarted. bcoz i'm de only who doesn't know how to do.